EOL: 2013

It is the beginning of January now, which means that it’s time to look back and see what has been done and what I failed to do over the last 12 months. As with any year in our life, during the last one I witnessed the appearance of new things and the start of new activities – many of them I will carry through 2014 and maybe even further. On the other side, there are things that I had to leave in 2013 either because I have chosen to do so or due to the reasons less dependent on my short term decisions and determined mostly by the nature of the events. Both what I left and what I take with me will influence my future life and is important when looking ahead.

Heading West

These days I am working hard on my diploma project. The defense is scheduled for the 26th of June, so I have a great and nervous month ahead. Obviously, finishing the six year course of study is an enjoyable achievement. Being an ending of one significant period of my life, this event will at the same time mark a beginning of another one and this new beginning worries me because I am still uncertain not only about the things that it will bring, but about the direction I should go from there as well. One particular opportunity to which I am encouraged is continuing my education in the form of pursuing Master's degree in CS in USA or Canada.

 

The idea is great and there are lot's of reasons to try. First of all, I like the process of learning new skills and getting knowledge, so the chances are high that I will enjoy another couple of years at university. At the same time, the fact that I lack trust in Russian system of higher education makes me look for an opportunity to deepen and broaden my own education elsewhere. Moreover, even if my assumption about the quality of university education being higher in America doesn't hold, it would still be great to explore new grounds and se what do things look like there. Another feature that makes a degree obtained abroad more valuable for me than one got in Russia is that, as it seems to me, western MS is valued much higher not only in US, Canada and Europe, but in Russia as well.

 

However, while there are huge benefits offered by Master's program in a good university, I see drawbacks as well. The most important of these is the fact that the path I want to go is the path of a software engineer. While mastering this field indeed requires descent education, what is even more crucial for a developer is actual experience in tackling real-world problems. Since I will hopefully get diploma in a month it may be better for me to get into industry instead of spending another 20 months or so on education. This point is made even stronger by the fact that I am almost 24 now and still have only minor job experience. Put another way, I feel it's time to focus on producing things - not only preparing myself for that. I acknowledge that it is possible to create great stuff even while studying at a university, although the word 'focus' is important here and the availability of numerous MOOCs allows me to not merely trade further education for job but to get both at the same time.

 

One more thing that really frightens me when it comes to studying abroad is money. The education alone costs a great deal and one has to take into account the cost of dwelling and other stuff as well. The price really seems too high for me and I am not sure whether I will be willing to pay it - no matter through loans or from my parents' pocket. On the other side, I do believe that generally these costs are fully justified by the merits one gets from university in the form of skills, new contacts and the degree itself. Although, because I am close to getting a degree it is not that easy to estimate the value of such an investment in comparison to going straight for a job.

 

Even with all the arguments laid out it is still very difficult for me to make any reasonable decision. The idea that should I choose to pursue Master's abroad it is better to do this as soon as possible also doesn't make the decision easier. Fortunately, these days I have to concentrate all my efforts on the diploma and put most other issues aside.

Courage

Recently (well, that is several months ago), I have changed the name of this blog from meaningless 'Not that important notes' to something that seems at worst equally meaningless, but probably less irrelevant. To make sense of it I should explain what I feel courage is.

 

First of all, there is the common meaning of the word 'courage' which deals with being not prone to fear. Because I am very diffident person it is sometimes quite difficult for me to share notes with other people - especially when it comes to the things written in English, since I know that my language skills are far from excellency. This way it turns out that while posting something to the blog - including this particular entry - I am in fact exercising my courage. The quality of being open to others and not afraid of sharing my thoughts and ideas is of great importance. I believe that the blog helps me foster this trait, so the new title apparently makes some sense.

 

 

 

On the other hand, writing itself allows me to better understand different aspects of the things I deal with in any area of my life as well as the ways I am dealing with them, thus directly or indirectly improving my decision making skills. This reminds me of the definition given by a samurai in Hagakure:

 

To rush in to the thick of battle and to be slain in it is easy enough, and the merest churl is equal to the task, but it is true courage to live when it is right to live, and to die only when it is right to die.

 

Although Hagakure is a book for warriors written by a warrior, the quote suggests that courage is not about being able to get into battle without any hesitation or fear. Instead it states that courage is more of an ability to know what to do next. Such a quality is as important for warriors as it is for software developers and for everybody else. Beside this, it is required and at the same time hard to master for me as a young man, because being a man, as opposed to a child, has a lot to do with making my own decisions and dealing with their consequences. Thus, as the blog is used to communicate ideas - and its title is not an exception of any kind - I am communicating an idea: courage is very important both for me and you.

 

One more quote encourages me to value courage so high:

 

Courage is a litmus paper for all other human qualities.

 

I am not sure where does this definition originate from and don't even remember who is its author. However, what I feel sure about is the fact that this blog may serve as a good test or indicator for all my personal traits.